don’t need a ticket to hell

my thoughts were numb in the glass of whisky

my lips were ready to get the taste of it

however, I have to admit it was the fifth

and the situation was getting way too risky.

 

all I wanted now was to spill it on the paper

and make it look like modern poetry or like an overly drunk love song made for comedy

because, again, I was my own art raper.

 

it was at a bad timing

I couldn’t.

my thoughts were too good at swimming

I wasn’t.

 

should I feel confortable in my own sadness?

I want to have the life this bottle of whisky has:

burn in the neck of the ones who are unlucky in love and all that jazz

or should I continue to crave the inexistent happiness?

 

because to believe in its existence it’s like having a ticket to hell,

it’s like walking on the sun at dawn

and pretend not to get burned as a rag, as a pawn.

take my hand, I will be your chaperon, I know this place too well.

 

I’ve grown up with you addicted to the smell of tangerine in the air

I’ve had the tragedy in my blood since I became your body

I don’t know why your indifference fails to kill me lately

it seems to have been a lie that I used every year.

 

I’m walking down on the main street of my soul

I try to talk to everybody who is out there

some might just say they have a funeral to attend somewhere

I avoid asking… it’s clear I’m dead on the whole.

 

I smile.

I would have liked to come too,

but, sadly, I forgot the flowers and you

from my home, you know, it was just a mile.